Wow! I just scrolled back through months' worth of posts, and I FOR
REAL cannot even wrap my mind around how time just f l i e s right
on by! Blink for 0.03 of a second, and *POOF*, it's Friday; blink again
for another 0.03 of a second and *POOF*, it's April. Oh!, you
have a newborn baby that you want to snuggle every tiny inch of? Blink
and *POOF*, she's seven months old and sitting up and playing in a pile
of toys all by herself. Your oldest daughter went into 1st grade
knowing about 50 sight words and so eager to learn more? Blink and
*POOF*, she's snuggled up in her top bunk bed reading Junie B. Jones
chapter books all by herself. You have a 4-going-on-14-year-old daughter who was juuuust learning to use scissors and glue not that
long ago? Blink and *POOF*, she's spotted at the dining room table
with scissors, glitter glue pens, pipe cleaners, pom poms, and a random
stash of other craft supplies that she's molded
into the perfect masterpiece all by herself.
A very large part of my momma
heart loves seeing my babies learn and grow and become more accomplished
and independent each day; but, another -- probably equally as large --
part just aches at the way time continues to *POOF* on by in the
blink of an eye! While my brain tells me to teach them more so they can survive without me, my heart tells me to cling to these special days when they truly do still need me! ...Whiiiiiiiich is the reason why I absolutely love to use this blog as archive for even the smallest things that we do! The days can be long, but the years are OH SO short; and when the days turn to years and the years turn to decades, these beautiful babies of ours will grow their wings and fly the nest and I just know I'll LOVE having a collection of little memories waiting here in this safe space to look back on and smile at.
...But therein lies the next problem! After scrolling back through pages and pages of posts, I see a birthday memoir here ...a month-by-month milestone there ...a Scarlett-isms blurb here ...and a rare holiday chronicle there. And it kind of makes me sad, because I know these fun events are just small drops in the large bucket of joys we share inside our home from day-to-day life.
And, TBH, I want to remember all the joys. The smallest of joys, the biggest of joys, and even the mediocre and in-between and not-all-THAT-special of joys.
AND SO! I'm making a few promises to myself:
...a promise to try harder with blogging...
...a promise to prioritize collecting photos and putting pen to paper more frequently...
...a promise to increase in writing with a little more rawness and detail and emotion so I can always come back here and remember in full detail what are sure to be the very best days of my life.
Time might fly, but I'mma make sure that the memories we've made won't fade!